Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Subliminal Memories

For those who have read New Moon of the Twilight saga, how many of you can related to what Bella's going through?

Despite all the sappiness of not being able to move on and not wanting to forget, drifting to and fro between the two who makes her feel alive, I do feel her.

Have you ever want to forget something so bad that you wished it never existed, but yet on the other hand you're thankful that you've been given the opportunity even for that slightest moment. As time passes, each memory is still fresh and everything feels like it was just yesterday when in reality it has been years. Despite moving on to new found happiness, yet still holding on to the memories. How Bella's heart ached every time she is reminded of something related to the Cullens or Edward. The sore, the hurt, the angst, the fear. Being in a place all so familiar, hoping to see the one, hoping time would turn back to relive the moments. Wanting to know about the person, wanting to hear the name. But yet afraid that it will cause an emotional stir inside when the waves have been calmed.

I understand why she feels the emptiness, why the hurt, why the yearning.

She never had the answer, the reason of everything that has happened.

If only she knew why truly left from the beginning, perhaps she wouldn't feel as empty and as hurt.

Or maybe, one just have to be absolutely rational in looking further ahead for the consequences and chain of reactions from just one step.

If it didn't happen, it wouldn't have hurt.
But if it didn't hurt, one would never have learn.

After all these years, would you rather know the brutal truth, or prefer to stick to your own assumptions for the perfect memory?

Thursday, February 11, 2010

The Tiger Roars

Happy Chinese New Year !!!

Am getting all excited. But ...

It's 5.30pm and my boss just dropped off some work. Plus he pulled off the guilty conscious trick. "It's ok.. it can wait till you get back ... or you have time to do it now?"
But he has been one of the most amazing boss one can ever have, so I gladly do his bidding.
Though I'd very much love so much to head home now to spend that extra time with my baby boy before sending him off to "hell". I'm putting him up at the pet lodging for effing 6 days ! It's such hell for him due to the fact that he doesn't really like socializing with his same kind. And 6 days in a room full of his kind in various shapes and sizes. Poor baby.

I'm really rushing for time now. I hope I can blog real soon.
Getting my thoughts while multitasking at work is a bad combo.

Am so exited for sunny Penang ! Hope the heat will be bearable instead of a 24/7 sauna !

xoxo ... Happy Valentines Day too !

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