Ridiculous !

ime Everything seems absurd since lunch today.

I was greeted by a long lost soul who used to treat me so well like one of her own. It was nice seeing those warm familiar faces again, though it would never ever be the same again.

"Heard you were getting married ... who's the lucky man ?"

"Huh? Who oo ... "

"Someone really loaded .. who drives a car with a number plate of 3 .. or 13"

"Huh ???? 3 or 13 ??? Who told you about it? Marry wor ..."

"Ah *** lor .. he said the guy's house is filled with luxury cars all lined in a row"

"Whoaaa ........ " -.- !

MamaMichelle and I stared at each other cluelessly, until someone that fit that description popped into my head.

"That one arrr ... but I only had dinner with him ONCE. And that was history".

But the other caught only the word "history" and assumed that history meant "we dated before but it's not history". I buat tak dengar and save my effort for any explanations. It didn't matter anymore.

Back in the car we were joking that IFF that rumour gone wrong was real, I could just cut short my 10 year plan and live the most ridiculous lifestyle ever. Let's just not re-enter the bimbotic and over-fantasized world of mine again. It's just too ridiculous! And besides, I would never give up what I already have ... bliss is priceless.

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Ridiculous names. I know everyone wants to have some form of caucasian name to complement whatever chinese name we've got. But please for crying out loud .. get something decent and not be a joke. I have known a million people with ridiculous names ... not sure if I should explicitly state it here. Not nice to make fun of their choices coz afterall, this is a free world. Anyone has the right to name their kid Barney and be damn proud of it.

But it's just ridiculous to be over creative want that "special child" which a name that no one has. You have people naming themselves after the weather, seasons, color, fruits, chocolate?? Yea .. I know someone that do call herself Chocolate. Harmless laa .. people kawaii maa ..

Just as I was checking out all the name cards on my desk, I came across this card .. this person actually named himself CAESAR Teoh. Classic laa ! I'm having Rome fever now, and I think Octavian is a more chio name that Caesar. Just waiting for fate to let me meet someone this "eccentric". I might consider naming my child Octavian and Octavia. But then again, Octavia's character is just lousy and I don't want my daughter's name to be inspired by a confused-bisexual-good for nothing.

Happy Birthday Darling !

Almost slipped my mind ...

Happy Birthday Darling Alan How !

For some reasons I love this picture. Not only I looked amazingly over the moon, but Alan is like a loving second mother to me.

Tall, fair, handsome ... Alan makes a partner that every woman want in a man ... but sorry ladies .. you can never have him.

Life's a Bore

I just realized that I've been really "good" these days ..
haven't taken an off day for the longest time ever !

Till it feels that work is sooooooooooooo fugging boring. Dah laa my "ah-kor" left me to be a lone ranger again, delude myself in my realm of fantasies when boss ain't around .. I seriously hate the loneliness. It's sooo NOT a geminian thing ... Nic you have to agree terribly with me.

Geminians hate to be lonely.

I am in dire need to go on a holiday. Everyone around me is enjoying life .. Bangkok to party, Richie texting me on MSN each day to update me on his next vacation destination (tomorrow he's flying to Boracay ..... again!) .. my aunts just came back from Japan, and already planning to head to Milan some time soon. These people arrr ...... too much ler ... bloody envy!

Pretty soon .. another 3 weeks till I can feel the breeze in my face and sun burning my skin. It's been raining forever the past week or so and I just dread the cold. It's so cold that it feels like winter! Even my usual sleeping habit of skimpy sleepwear and air-cond or fan at level 4 has been drastically reduced to long sleeved and pants PJs with SOCKS in level 2 fan. With that I still curl up like a cooked prawn underneath the duvets. Crazy le ! One morning I happily woke coz I could see the sun shining through the curtains and heard birds chirping. But the rain had to come back again 3 hours later. And I asked myself a question like an innocent and naive 3 year old child .. "why is God so sad ? why is God crying non-stop ?"

I hope God stops being sad and stop the crying coz I would also cry ..... the freaking highway would be so fcuked and recently my patience level isn't very low and my bladder isn't very strong lor !

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My aunt just came back from Japan with pretty gifts for moi ! Big Big Kiss to you ! Merci bocoup !

For moi ... the red so pweettyy ...
... and for TaiSou.A MUST buy when in Japan .. the Blue Lable.

Blue Lable
This is not the original website .. but you can view almost every single design they hold.

I was googling for the item my aunt bought for me coz I damn malas to go snap a pic and upload. And I realized what amazing choice of lapsap-bag they have. It's like THE-PLACE to go and get your lapsap bag (lapsap-bag = rubbish bag .. bag that can hold very single rubbish a person can have). Nice, spacey, practical, easy to match, and affordable ... and I guess it has gotta be light weight coz it's of fabric material and not your average fancy material. I'm already regretting my previous Burberry purchase coz the bag is already heavy itself .. plus with my lapsap .. macam carrying a bowling bag everywhere. Sigh ... but I still love it wor ... how? Sit nicely as display in my closet lorrr ....

Sista

I vaguely remembered I came up with the word "sisTA" years ago when I was doing my industrial training. There I met my Big-SisTA WenDee .. whom I think contributed half to the birth of sisTAhood. I was flipping this old organizer I was using eon years ago and WenDee would scribble something on it almost everyday. An avid poetry and motivational phrase person I would say. Wonder where she is now and how she' doing. Miss you ...

Now .. the term is being used so widely .. I wouldn't be so shameless to make a claim that I am the great inventor of the word, but it's nice to know that it's being used by almost everyone now. Back then, SistaEsh was kinda proud that we had a unique sistahood that was different from everyone. Time to generate a new hybrid term .. Siesta ?? Haha~~~

I miss my sis ... really ... it's soooooo fugging lonely here ok !!!

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Historical pics taken over CNY. Meant to post them sooner, but the owner refused to resize them and insisted that I got them off sharing folder of 50 OTHER WU-LIAO PICS WHICH TOOK 10 MILLION YEARS TO LOAD ! I gave up since to load each pic taken on a 8 mp camera .. you do the math. I grabbed them off Gis's facebook. Somehow I have this evil feeling that SisBroLong was biased and gave SistaGis the priviledge. Hehe~~~

"Hao chai wo you lai aa" ... by Mr.TKH.

FruitZhong SisBroLong .. sorry, kinda sabo pic for you coz you looked very unflattering. haha .. but funny lor ... i jez had to .. Spot SistaEsh ... Wonder how is PearGalDoris doing over in NZ. Babe ... I thought you damn free to blog. Never thought the pear job so stressful .. hehe. Have loads of fun there ... and please blog soon! SisBroSoon .. finally a decent and unreluctant pic from you!

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I'll be attempting a very very very technical java script modification to my blog. Gonna create this archive calender. Even though there's a step by stem guide ... I'm so intimidated by the amount of jargons involved. It's not a cut and paste thing lo ... wish me luck for not fugging up the whole template like I did the last time. *fingers crossed*

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SUCCESS !!! Check out my calender at the side tab ! Woohoo ~

I'm no IT-script-whatever-freak so this is a big breakthrough for me.

Roll ur eyes at me for all I care .. haha ..

Surreal Reminiscenes

" I no longer see your dear face clearly in my mind,

the edges of the picture have blurred into the mists of time,

Your voice, a muffled echo across the timeless years,

the memory of your touch drowned long ago in half forgotten tears,

but sometimes when I least expect,

a stranger looks into my eyes the way you used to do,

and then I realize,

my mind has chosen to forget,

but still my heart goes on remembering you. "

I figured that it has become a long forgotten past. When I no longer have the slightest thought of your existence, something had to remind me of you. I dazed in the remarkable resemblence that I can't deny. And I woke that it's just a spark of coincidence, smiled, and put all the memories back into the box and back in the furthest corner in the attic.

The sony buzzed. I dred to pick it up as I was comfortably tucked with love and warmth. The buzzing ended. It never buzzed again. Should be unimportant. I checked hours later, dazed, but somehow my fingers chose to ignore to return a call.

I wonder .. if it is possible to ever totally forget something?
Sometimes it's best, when the happy memories only brings 3 seconds of smile and hours of sadness.

Is it better to .. Have loved and lost than to never loved at all ?

from the movie The Leap Years

Moody'ness

I don't like me again. Checked the calender .. PMS'ing .. just great! Somehow I dread the day it comes. Kinda period-phobic now coz everytime I feel like ending my existence so that I won't suffer so much. The previous one hurt so bad that I needed a jab to calm the muscles down. Kinda stoned my way to sleep. Wonder what they used? Morphine? Got the "kick" .. felt good stoned. =.=!

I'm begining to be paranoid again. Nic I thank you so much for always being the one to endure my sh!t .. and giving me all the consolation, care, advice and a big slap to wake me up from this unwanted self. I'm begining to be whiny... this is no good. Nic said I've always been whiny. Coz I'm an attention seeker .. and everything has to be about me me me ! There's some truth to it ............. Ok .. it's true. Who doesn't want attention ??? I want 10 million percent of attention from my loved ones .. I don't get 'em .. I whine. *sigh* Seems like everything is not feeling right with me ever since I've crossed 2008 (i.e. age 26 .. soon to come). Breakouts, scrawny, paranoia, you name it ... bring it on !

I need to rest .. I need warmth .. I need love .. I need to curl up under his warm arms.

Tai Chi Bride

I'm not sure if I "modelled" over the weekend for the Bridal Fair in Plaza Pelangi. I felt that I tai-chi'ed on stage instead. *teehee* But it was fun though .. and I applaud my courage to perform dramatically with a bridal gown on. I feel that it would have been a better performance if Mamamia had let me go through ballet lessons during my childhood. She feared that I would grow up to be a scrawny girl from dancing too much. Don't see what difference does it make. I caught a video of my performance but I ain't gonna put up the weirdo tai-chi performance to SpiceGirl's Viva Forever .. Only available to those who caught glimsp of the live performance yesterday. But Eloise said it jadi'ed abit and she liked the full turn I did. *self praise is self disgrace .. but that was the review I gotten maa .. unless she was just being nice laa ... =.=! "

My Tutti-Frutti (more like Florti since there's no fruit) dress for the second performance. I kinda liked the vibrance and cuteness of it .. though not many know how to apreciate its loudness.

Eloise. It's been a while since we cam-whored together over shows.

A whole new batch of people to work with. Fun, energetic, babelicious and YOUNG ! I am almost a decade older than some of them. Serious ! And oohh .. we meet again, Joannabell, from Female's 50 Gorgeous for 2007. This is how small the world is. We're watching you. *Eye pointing action from Meet the Parents*