Ever Thine .. Ever Mine .. Ever Ours

Though still in bed,

my thoughts go out to you,

my Immortal Beloved,

now and then joyfully, then sadly,

waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us -

I can live only wholly with you or not at all -

Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you

until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you,

and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits -

Yes, unhappily it must be so -

You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you.

No one else can ever possess my heart -

never - never -

Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves.

And yet my life in V is now a wretched life-

Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men -

At my age I need a steady, quiet life -

can that be so in our connection?

My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day -

therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once -

Be calm, only by a clam consideration of our existence

can we achieve our purpose to live together -

Be calm -

love me -

today -

yesterday -

what tearful longings for you -

you - my life - my all - farewell.

Oh continue to love me -

never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine ...

ever mine ...

ever ours.

Beethoven
Love Letters from Great Men & Women

What is there to believe in anymore ?

Sometimes I wished I was never here.

Life is too tormenting sometimes.

It's crumbling down .. it's crumbling down on me but it just won't kill me.

Why didn't it just kill me ?

Wouldn't it just be better then to just disappear with everything else ?

Tired

Babelicious Haflin was down in lion city over the weekend. Gawd I missed her soo much. Tash was one hell of a woman as well. Both hell of a shopper too. And for the first time, I caught a movie in Singapore. There would only be a handful of people from Malaysia who would pay 2.35 times more to watch a movie. To begin with, the cinemas was abit errmm ... (i shall not comment further). Anyways, we loved the movie. There was everything to love in the movie. The SHOES .. bags .. gorgeous dresses .. and that miracle wardrobe of Carrie's. Super the geram. According to Lin, the movie would only be out in Malaysian cinemas next month. I seriously have no idea on how the movie is gonna be screened here and get people to understand the movie. There's just too much to censor. The 2 1/2 hour long movie would end up to be a 45 minute episode. 95% was screened in Singapore and I would still get the DVD coz am so curious about what the 5% cut off was. Shant narrate about the movie just to keep you in suspense, but it'll just naturally die out waiting another month or so for the DVD to come out. Just catch it with your girlfriendsss for a sassy girly outing, then you won't look like an airhead when you ooh and aah about everything in it.

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SATC in the air ..

Shoe shopping thenafter was totally SATC inspired. Everything was related back. The sexy fuschia stilletto pumps from MiuMiu was so gorgeous we refuse to remove it. Next, tutti frutti colors from Ferragamo. How can one resist? And on sale !

I resisted .. expensive laa! And besides, it doesn't justify my needs for it. The poor darlings would only be sitting in the closet with no place for me to flaunt it and for it to be admired. To make things worse, it all came in my size. =.=!

I will be back baby !

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Gawd I'm so tired ........................
haven't rested well since Friday.

Beginning to be 'out of body, out of mind'. Caffein isn't working.

Perhaps some retail therapy would be helpful.

MNG members sale in 3 hours time. I've been a good girl for quite some time by not adding anymore material into my wardrobe. Perhaps one piece won't kill. Take it as a self-presented birthday prezzie. *teehee*

Mag shot for NewTide mag. Be sure to get it off the stands for the August issue.
Brilliant pieces from our local designers.

Friday the 13th

Freddy's coming !!!! Argghhhh ~~~

I hope today's not a bad luck day. Somehow in a very loooong time, am excited about the weekend. It's incredibly boring here that weekends are the 2 days where I would be sloppy and rot away by doing nothing. I don't even club anymore these days .. coz the sis'es are not around.

Am blowing out the candles tonight .. yay .. Ya, I know abit salah to actually do it one week after I was supposed to. But dun care, as long as it's within the 30 day frame .. no money back guarantee though.

Haflin's in town. And I sooo looking forward to meet her over breakfast tomorrow. Pity I couldn't cross over to go hang out and party with her .. I know it would be such a blast man. I miss that babelicious woman so much! Promise to post pics .. I know everyone's very eager to see her coz she's simply gorgeous!

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My new mane!
Excellent piece of work from Andy Chan - Andy Chan Hair Salon - Located at DNP, JB.
Previously known as H20 Hair Studio. No longer affiliated with the outlet in Jusco Tebrau City.

So loving the new color and highlights from the MajiBrown collection.
I swore he chopped off about 40% of my hair to actually create the "whisper" effect. And he did it in 4 big cuts using some mummy-wrap technique (or whatever it is .. i'm really bad at hairstyling jargons). I hope I'm able to maintain it properly and not let them down. But then again, I can always call on some S.O.S. help.

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Bosses aren't supposed to be workaholics.
So that gives the employees a chance to cut some slack. Haha. Ridiculous that it's coming from the mind of a HR person. La la la .. whatever.
Boss has been coming to work rather early this week, even earlier than I am. Ok, I was late .. very late. But I was much earlier yesterday clocking in at 9.00 am, he was already in. I could tell that he might not be too happy coz he couldn't be bothered to on the lights. Today I was much much earlier. 8.45am. If he comes in earlier than this then I give up la. But he clocked in an hour later. Why didn't he came in 5 minutes after I did, at least he could see that I came earlier instead of assuming that I might have came in at the usual 'before 9.30' time. =.=!

Perhaps he has readjusted himself to the Malaysian time after returning from Disneyland. I wanna be his kid. Kids are so lucky these days. I have a deprived childhood from Disneyland. And now when I'm much older and able to afford to fly myself there, I won't be able to enjoy myself like a kid would anymore. I know I'm a 'kid' .. but it's just not the same.

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Finally a new layout. A full page which I have always wanted. But the design isn't really very much to my liking though. Perhaps you guys can let me know some sites that have really good layouts. Full page layouts. Not the ugly cropped up in the middle kind.

And finally, a happier song. I know you guys are kinda sick of that mourning song.

Love is in the air! It feels so good to be in love! *blush*

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Better get back to work now. Been slacking off reaaaaaaaallllll bad.
I can't help it .. I only have the other people who were supposed to get back to me to blame. Corresponding jobs are such a bore sometimes. You can never get something done chop chop.

And am running out of ideas to look busy at work.
I can't help it again. I'm a fast worker. Bleahhh ....

Princess Day

I've been waiting all year for this day to come as I complete my annual cycle again. It's also not very comforting to know that I am in my late 20s. Sends shivers down my spine. My gawd .. I'm old. This statement is like a public announcement to everyone way way way much older to crucify me without any justifiable cause. Haha~ But really maaa ..... I am old ... der. I could see it in pictures .. being addicted to the camera, I could see the signs of aging. Even in professional studio shots, even make up can't make me a sweet 16 year old. But am aging in a good way. What was that word again ... aging gracefully? *wink*

For everyone out there who knows about the Impossible List ...

NO .. I DID NOT GET THE CHANEL BAG FOR MY PRESENT.

What are you guys thinking ... RM10k for a bag ??? In the future maybe when I'm a Mak Datin, or am damn rich to splurge in such a way, or my hubby is damn rich too .. or or or ...

... or Chanel participates in this year's Great Singapore Sale with a 70% discount tag on everything in store. To hell with what everyone thinks, I would camp at Taka like one of the super-kiasu Singaporeans. If people would camp for a RM55 Anya grocery bag, I would rather camp for a calf leather Chanel bag.

And also .. NO .. I DID NOT GET ANYTHING OFF THE IMPOSSIBLE LIST.

Sekian, terima kasih.

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For a change, instead of material, I was given major pampering, in the serenity of sentosa at The Beaufort / The Sentosa. At the opposite direction of where all the hype is, this resort was one hell of a destressing getaway. Lush greenery, beautiful landscaping with frangipani trees everywhere .. ponds, water features filled with lotus and fallen frangipanis.

View by day.

View by night.

My princess pampering at Spa Botanica @ The Sentosa. This is what I call true relaxation. What most people perceive relaxation is paying a whopping sum to be "pampered" in a shophouse and get soaked in a tub. Seriously. I haven't paid to get soaked in a bathtub before .. so not worth it man. Such a scrooge sometimes .. hence the new nickname given my SisEsh, MisSip! hahaha~

Was welcomed by it's humble entrace, but as we walked in, the oohs and the aahs started. The rooms were all very impressive with its luxurious wood decor. So are the lounge ala changing room, toilet, jacuzzi, cold dips, waiting area, etc. You know a good massage when you really fall asleep and merajuk when they wake you to tell it's over. Thenafter, you are lead to further relax and decompose at the pool area .. 3 pool areas to be exact! Or head of a mud bath .. do some meditation or yoga at the circular bamboo zen area, or even have some bites at the poolside cafe or at the pavilion surrounded by lush greenery. Just awesome laa babe!

Price wise, I would say it's valued for money (minus the conversion of course!) You'll never get the same thing with the same price here. It's so good to be Singaporean sometimes! Major envy .. can be so tai-tai every weekend man!

I only have my dearest to thank. The quality time spent supersedes any material form gifted in a box.

On second thoughts, I take that back ... coz it's abit hard to say NO to alot of things .. which comes in a box !!!

One of which .. doughnuts in a box. 1 dozen yummilicious j.co doughtnuts.

Thanks Zov!

You have officially made me the most selfish person ever. I refuse to share my doughnuts even to my family members. The people who has showered me with 26 years of unconditional love. And not a single bite of doughnut for them.

Doughnuts are a sin !!!

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Weird sightings.

Peacock on a roof. I have no idea that peacocks are flight birds. I don't even think they have wings/flap .. bird hands/arms ??? We were supposed to relax, but ended up very much curious on how it was supposed to get off the roof of a 2-storey building.The scariest Merlion ever. Purple with glowing eyes.
My gawd. It was just a terrifying sight.

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To my dearestsss who are residing in Pang's residence. I issue an order that a cake with 26 litted candles has to be presented during or after dinner (where of course, I am buying) so that I can fulfill my wishes .. and that my wishes for 2008 comes true. I hold all of you responsible if they don't !!! Hahaha~

Irony.

I received a call from my beloved brother the next day only to have him asking me ..

"Eh .. yesterday was your birthday izzit ?"

I mean .. what kind of question is that? I have lived with him for the past 26 years. It was acceptable that he lost track of time, but forgotten? 6/6 isn't exactly a very hard date to remember my dear brother. And to make matters worse, he was confused and thought that it might be 7/7 instead. =.=!

No worries. We totally understand each other. No biggie.

Birthdays

Happy Birthday ...

SisBro Soon !

Though you always treat me like shit .. forget me .. even din jio me to your so-called birthday celebration .. I still heart you.

This is called .. "Unconditional Love".

*puke*

Motives:

1. May you be so touched and appreciate our friendship more.

2. Hope you feel damn guilty. But I doubt you will !

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Mario-Dav !

Your Ta-Xiao-Jie's miss you loads.

Major kind .. major patient .. and ever-forgiving and accepting soul of yours is what makes you so special. Girls .. good catch wei !

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So happened that the decent and only pics I can find are those with my disaster hairdo. What was I thinking back then???? The bangs were like super langgar! Big No No .. bangs with helmet-curved ends ... ewwwwww ....

Fuggup

Fuggup No. 1

Just when you thought things were getting better at the office .. the same frustration has to happen at home. My whole drama episode with the internet connection. Something is terribly wrong !!!!! Just my luck not to have an affinity with it. Streamyx has developed a new found hobby. Getting me disconnected all the time. Thank you very much.

Fuggup No. 2

I finally strut in the BigC territory. There goes my hopes for owning the BigC. My gawd .. how can I actually splurge S$4300 on a bag? A price equivalent to the 0.7 carat diamond ring we checked out at SooKee. Major sigh.

Fuggup No. 3

Everthing is just not going my way now. Starting to sink into the depression zone. Like a car with a dead battery, I need a jumpstart. I miss those hippie days back then. No fugging around hippie .. but happy hoppy hippie. Signs of aging. This is bad.

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On the brighter note .. something to look forward to ...

My Birthday !

Yay ... fingers crossed it's gonna be exhilarating. Fingers crossing very hard.