Pass You By

One of my favourite songs .. specially dedicated to my Babe-G who's feeling at her lowest now. Please remember that you deserve so much better in life.
I hope that you are able to see the light soon after months of darkness.
And I'll be here for you my dear ... *hugsss*



Pass You By by Boyz II Men

She was like nothing I'd ever known
Her eyes shine like diamonds in a field of snow
Man, that destiny led her to me
Made her feel that life was now complete

A thousand days have passed
And nights gone by
You can see the glow slowly fading from her eyes
Though she denies her pain and her dismay
Know I said this to her anyway

Chorus:
Don't have to stay with someone that makes you cry
You'll end up killing all the love you have inside
Can't hope to see the sun
If you don't open your eyes
Girl don't let real love pass you by
Don't let real love pass you by

I know you are nervous
But take it from me
Cause you deserve so much more than you receive
Listen to your heart and let it show
Don't hold on to your pain
Just let it go, let it go

Chorus

You can find a love you need
If you set your heart free
Girl...
Don't have to stay with someone
That makes you cry
Don't be discouraged baby
Don't let real love pass you by

Chorus

Shagged

Have you ever wondered, no matter how nobel are you in the society, everybody is someone's "Whore". Money does make the world go round and due to this, we whore ourselves to make some cash in exchange for the basic necessities for survival. We're all created to humour our creators when they watch us running around in the foodwhore-chain. I do not mean to be disrespectful to our almighty creators. Just a sudden thought that the so-called creators I am referring to here are those like Neo or Trinity and we in the Matrix world.

For the previous month or so I have been pushing myself as much as I can at the moment to expand the number of digits in my bank account so as to make my 10-year8-year plan realize; which is to retire by the age of 35. Whether or not I choose to whore myself again, that's optional. Pushing 3 jobs into the 7 day schedule is bloody tight. Somehow finally I am dreading for a breather and hoping that a day has 36 hours so that I can sleep off the tiredness, spend more time with my son as he now thinks he's a bunny, spend more quality time with my beloved, and also my sayangs, and some personal time to pamper myself.

After yesterday's session, the whole whoring agenda just struck me. All that glitz and glamour that everyone perceived in this industry is just a facade. We sell ourselves as a canvas, and get paid for that. Then we're left in our clients hand to manipulate and paint us anyway they want. They would do me over and over and over again till we are able to satisfy them.

Now I know why they used the term "shagged" to refer to major-tiredness.

Just imagine shagging 10 clients in a day.

Multi-Level-Whoring.

In the society, everybody is someone's whore. You get paid to be you're superior's whore, who gets paid to be his/her superior's whore to whore you, and the chain goes up and up until it reaches the ultimate whore-house owner.

Everybody's whoring income gets overrided as you are higher in the pyramid.

But then again, the whore-house owner is a whore too in his own level, whoring himself to his company to make money for his family.

:D

Whore-metaphore class dismissed.

Too much rubbish to be absorbed too early towards the weekend.

Major Outbreak

Major epidermic crisis running all over my face.
And again I am depressed over my choc chip + extra choc chip -like face of mine.
The past month has gotten me extra moolah which is yet to be seen but has taken a toll on my skin. Last weekend, I could finally feel it eating through my skin. And now I refuse to head anywhere filled with people coz I dun wanna cover up the "chicken-pox" outbreak on my face. Ewww .... With more assignments coming up, I'm wondering if I should give up the extra income which is too good to give up, and sacrifice my face to the chemicals again.

I wonder if they will call my agents to cancel on the assignment when they see me in this state.

I need a miracle.

But I am lucky to have someone by my side to give me comfort and strength in battling this temporary depression and low self esteem.

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S.O.S.

I am in distress.

Searching for the ideal holiday is soooooo bloody hard, when the place is filled with millions of resorts, hotels and villas for you to choose from. But nothing came across as the perfect place. I had to compromise on either one. And you know how deceiving the pictures on the internet are. When you thought you found the one, and you double check on the ratings and reviews .. someone has to say something like "horrible experience" "will never go back" etc. Either that, or the location has to be at the corner of the earth.

I have too many options.

Anyone knows of any good villas to stay at over at Bali. One of those luxury villas that comes with your own private pool. And the interior must be amazing not those crappy so-called villas. Preferably near the beach. Has good surroundings, and extra services i.e. Spas and Massages. And close to amenities .. coz I do not want to starve and neither we are caucasians who hibernates in their resorts. And within a reasonable budget of US$150.

It sucks when you're from a country where your currency is like bloody low. Hell it's the economic crisis in the states now .. why aren't we on par or just slightly lower, just like how the Aussie dropped to be equal to the Singapore Dollar?!

I've found way too many ... but they're so deceiving saying it's "near" to the beach, when it's like 1.5 to 2km away from the beach. Am not gonna walk around near butt naked or soaking wet from the beach for 2km lor.

Plus, where's good to stay in Krabi? I have no single clue on which beach to be at.
And where's the moon party held?

I give up googling. I need a reliable travel agent.

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Major backlog. I wonder if I still know how to blog even at all.

Or will it be the written script of what's going on in my mind?
It's a party up there .. I've got no focus. Order now!

It's Sis-Esh's Birthday today.

Happy Birthday Sis !
Always have been a baby .... you're so way pass that sis!
*Slaps on the head for some awakening* :D

And a big huggie to make it up again :D

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These few weeks have been so packed that I'm exhausted. I'm no longer a hopping 21 year old with the stamina of an Energizer Batter or a Duracel Bunny. I felt I haven't been resting for the longest time ever. On the bright side, I get extra income to splurge on UNnessecities.

Valentine's 2009 has been a special one. It's the only time of the year where the girls get to sit back and wait for the men to do all planning and impressing. But I guess this year Vic was a much happier man than me. He's so lucky it's not funny yo!

The Dita's arrived in time for Valentines. The long awaited Dita's that kept me on my toes for the longest time ever that it has somewhat caused me some trauma in internet shopping. But it paid off. The customized Dita Flight 002 was a baby! Damn right it is! They already have 8 colors to choose from but yet we got them to make the 9th color. Benjamin from LeeLeeLunnettes.com was very helpful in making it happen. Thanks man ! *macam he read my blog* haha~

Then there was the handmade pop up card I made him. The digital scrapbooking is really growing on me. Each time I make him a card, I would reluctantly give it to him :D

And lastly .. not forgetting the white angel :)

I got mine too ...

The single sunflower that never fails to make me blush and put a smile on my face. It's my 4th stalk throughout our journey ... and by far it's the prettiest of them all.

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And as all couples might just cuddle into each other's loving arms post Valentine's Day, spending the rest of the day just whispering sweet nothings, expressing their love for each other, and just mezmerize into each other's eyes ....

I got up early to "work" with Jessica Liu.

The up and rising star of Mediacorp Singapore. To me she'll always be my RuanMianMian :D

And my dear SisBro Long will just drool ... he fell in love with her the first time he met her in Taiwan. He hasn't stopped fantasizing about her ever since.

Babe Geline .. please hold it in ya :)

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The wedding fair marathon .. another this weekend, City Square JB.

KFC Buddies
Followed by judging at Ginza, Paragon Hotel for the Miss Malaysia International Johor State Selection pageant.

Strike a pose!
And a prim and proper one for the camera.
You have no idea how wacky we are off camera. Queens are never prim n proper. We're just good actresses that's all :D

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I'm so disoriented right now I will stop here.
Photolog for now. More serious thoughts and issues next time.
I promise.